_Thursday, March 02, 2006_
Hey! Alright, it has been awhile since I last blogged. Well, actually it's because I am lazy and there is really nothing to blog about!! Lately, I have been rather tired. Be it metally or physically. I don't really know when this started but I tend to keep things in my heart. Perhaps I was trying not to break other people's heart by telling them straight in the face that they are ugly or selfish or irritating or disgusting...blah blah blah... Sometime it just overloads and makes you feels that "This is it! I had enough of these nonsense!"

Oh well, fortunately, I am quite good tempered. Just as long that you don't get too cocky and try your luck to infuriate me, I will TRY not to throw my temper.

Maybe it's the past that keeps me distant from others. I just don't trust people easily and sometimes, one look into their eyes, it just tells me that they are bearing negative comments about me. Even thought I do know that no one is prefect in this world and I don't really have to care about other people's comments but I just can't get through my psychological barrier.

Lately I don't really know why Joanne and etc were talking about Sec 1 or 2's life, etc. This reminds me. I can't remember anything that happened before my Sec 3's life. Everything is just blurred and I can only recall pieces of what really happened. If my Sec 1 and 2's memory is already like this, whats more about my Primary school's life. Now, come to think of it, I only got a vague picture of my Sec 3's life. Oh god...

Perhaps I am over sensitive towards people? Or maybe I just think too much. Even so, the truth is I am mentally tired...

Wow~ What a moody entry. Perhaps I should try looking at things at a more childish angle and not getting all paranoid... Oh well...

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!