_Thursday, March 31, 2005_

Your element is Night/Shadow. You are a combination
of the shadows and the creatures of the night.
Cool. You are a loner and tend to 'bark' at
anyone who dares to talk to you and get to know
you. You prefer to be alone and like to keep it
that way. Though there is that special someone
who is probably the only one who can unlock
your heart....


What's your Element?(FOR GUYS!!!!!^ ^but girls can take it too, WITH ANIME PICTURES!!!!!)
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You have a Twisted Sense of Humor - Those stupid
knock-knock jokes just make you roll your eyes.
You prefer the more hands-on type of funny, as
in you used your HANDS to push somebody ON top
of a huge pile of dog s***, and it was FUNNY!
You're most likely a pessimistic person by
nature, and tend to get depressed sometimes.
Often, you feel misunderstood by your
family/peers, so you like to project a rough
image so that people won't mess with you.
You're sometimes reluctant to trust others but
would do anything for the people you care
about.


What's Your Sense of Humor Like, and What Does It Say About Your Personality?
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YOU ARE CATNIP


What herb are you?
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You're "Worst Day Ever"


What 'Simple Plan' song are you?
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Perfect


What Simple Plan Song Are You?
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You hide behind The Cold Mask. you like to show
people that you don't care about any thing and
that people don't concern you but you only do
this because you are afraid that when you love
someone or get close to them, you might loose
them in the end, cuz loosing is your worst
nightmare, so you always tend to keep a
distance between you and the others, this way
you think you are safe.


What kind of masks you hide behind? (i added pix)
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your fuck.


What swear word are you?
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Stability: Stability is your prime instinct. You
have a strong balanced soul, it belongs to
Earth, you have potential to acheive great
success in your life, don't give up on your
beliefes for no reason.


What is your prime instinct?
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You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light. Image from: Stevee Postman.
http://www.stevee.com/


Which Tarot Card Are You?
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How evil are you?

What Pattern Are You?

You are the X!


What Punk Symbol are You?
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Guitarist
Just... not much to you. Fairly straightforeward.
You see life as it is, and just don't give a
damn enough to pull any stunts like a bassist
or break anything like a drummer.


What Instrument in a rock band are You?
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Congratulations, you're In The End!


What Linkin Park 'Hybrid Theory' video are you?
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The Assassin.


What was your job in a past life? (LOTS of results & Anime Pics)
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Dao! The chinese Kung-Fu Sword! This attack weapon
is wild and powerful. Used by the soldiers in
the old chinese Army. the Dao is often compared
with a furious tiger.


What's your Weapon? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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Talent


What Kanji word best suits you?
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You're like a Unicorn!


?? Which Mythical Creature Are You ??
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Waterfall


?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??
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__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

_Monday, March 28, 2005_

Brown/Honey -> You aren't too keen on telling
people everything, but you sure do love your
friends. They love you too, but you do have
your flaws. They're about your attitude. You
are too bossy for your own good. Try to
improve and raise your patience level. Other
than that you're great!


What Color Are Your Anime Eyes?
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__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

_Thursday, March 24, 2005_

FUCK YOU.. FUCKING BUSTARD!!! U BIG FAGGOT!!! STUPID BEEHIVE[LK].. DUN PUSH MI TO THE LIMITS!! AND DUN PLAY WIF MI IF NOT I SHALL KICK YOU IN UR FUCKING ASS!!!!! STUPID BEEHIVE!!

aniway...back to mi life.. :) Kinda sad for mi larz...dunnoe whether i had done well for mi CA1 not.. think i should juz post mi results lorz...

ENGLISH... 51.0 [C5]

CHINESE.... 78.0[A1]

E.MATHS....52.5[C5]

A.MATHS...17.5[F9]

CHEMISTRY....48.0[D7(ARGHZ!!!)]

PHYSICS......47.0[D7(ARGHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!)]

HISTORY.....80.0[A1]
SOCIAL STUDIES...44.0[E8]
>>>Combined Humanities...62.0[B4]

its juz suxz i noe... gonna get all "A"s the next Ca test..Haiz..

ANIWAY!!! got the Ac'06 started think they are okaz lar..average performance tt still can be improved... whoa and on WED !!! whoa~ fireworks...LOL SJAB was flared up.. during footdrill everyone was so angry...mi too got angry cuz of the sec2's performance.. haiz... dun wanna mention...

YAY!! on tuesday the concert finally ended!! Pam!! thanks for cuming down to watch hor... hahahah noe how to go to my sch le hor... dun get lost again!! aniway its OVER!!YAY!!!BUT!!!from that Mdm Ng... there will be another concert which will be on a larger scale after JUNE HOLIDAYS!!!...DARN!!!

btw...today's music lesson was kinda like revision for us.. on that prokofiev guy... asked mdm ng what i should play for mi "o" level music then i handed her the ones i wanted to play but she said.. too easy... Japanese music?!...wadev4!!!! she then asked mi to play CHOPIN's pieces.. dots..my piano t'cher hates him.. dunnoe y... then later on Shiqian mention thay her fingers are too short so cannot play his pieces that well.. then come to think of it.. maybe thats why mi piano t'cher hates him.. her fingers are like SQ's.... aniway CHOPIN's pieces are damn hard.. dun think i can cope.. haiz.. 6 months to the practical thingy... yawn~ how??! if u dunnoe how tough it was... imagine this.. more than 30 notes for one hand and its allegro..which means fast.. btw i think jieying is great!! she ROXZ!!!

HOW?!! WHICH ONE TO PLAY??

wishing for a dog now~ haiz~

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

_Sunday, March 20, 2005_

ARGHZ!!! STRESSED OUT manz.... the tuesday concert is coming and i think i gonna die...haiz... mi gona plays the piano.. but dunnoe whether can make it not... the forth page first stanza simply SUCKS!!! think i will definitely DIE... then mdm ng will give that *dead fish* face... :P

haiz... juz hope i can survive this thingy... aniway sum updatez... juz added on backgrd music to this blog as i always wanted to but the fucking link juz wont work so ya...til one day jo shown the site where a lot of midi are in to me.. its under coolz links.. perhaps u guys bloggin might use it??

WhoA!! holiday is over soon... actually onli one day left... oh its past 12 so left arz??.... dunnoe one day?? wadevA!!!! aniway its cuming to an end... and so its suxz!!!! holiday doesn't seems to be holidyas for us.. three out of five days we haf to go back to school for lessons and there are holiday assignments tt require to hand in during holidays?? HOW CONTREDICTING!!!(not sure spelling correct not) aniwayz.. ya this is wad happened to mi... wana go pets villa... haiz.. miss the cats and dogs there.. its been a long time since i visit Pets villa... haiz...hope i could go there as soon as possible...

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

_Thursday, March 17, 2005_

Yoz.. wadupz again?? Hahaha..kinda feeling happy and great or rather proud!!! SJAB corp achievement the results are back and we got GOLD!!! yay!!! after all the workz.. the trouble..WhoAz!!!

TWO THUMBS UPZ FOR RSS SJAB!!!!YA ROXZ!!:P

now thinking back... i think SJAB made a lot of pple to grow up..without SJAB perhaps i would still be some childish freak around...LOL... and without SJAB i won't know some great Guys like Kelly, Daniel, Gavin , Jacklynn ,the one always filled with crap and stuff...YIT HANN!! LOL... erm and lots more.. without SJAB i dont think i would appear on TV :P(let mi haolian baz...) and why on TV?? Cuz i represented SJAB in the national day parade at Kallang Stadium!!! Itz was a great experience to work with the Navy officerz... Roger sir!! always so crappy when he teaches us footdrill but can be bery fierce at times...(___")

I LOVE ST JOHN!!! these are the words i once shouted as a form of forfeit when i was a cadet.. and now as a sergeat thinking back...

I REALLI LOVE SJAB!!!!!

hahaahz... think i a bit off centred... feeling real HAPPY!!! :D i think SJAB is juz such a great CCA that spiced up my life darnz lot!! heex... thinking back...

Sec 1:
-Orentation
-3 days, 2 nights Camp(got gastric and went home on the second dayz..)
-Started competition training..
-First Aid examz...
-Got scolded..(growin upz..)

Sec2:
-Learned more stuffz..
-Got into Adminstrative dept..
-Expedition(wHOa!!!PAInz~ peguin!!!!)
-Got promoted from PTE to LCP!!!
-Outing...
-Campz...
-Got scolded..(growing upz...)

Sec3:
-Got promoted to CPL..
-Got promoted to SGT soon after..
-Participated in NDP..
-Took over Adminstrative dept...
-Started planning activities...(Camp..mi Vice Chairz...think i only oncez...??)
-Outing...
-Expedition(wHOa!!!PAInz~ peguin AGAINZ!!!!)
-MatuRed...(still growin..)

Sec4:
-Passed (Admin) over to my descendant..
-Currently trying to take AC'06 for trainin...

LIFE HAF YET TO UNFOLD...

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

_Tuesday, March 15, 2005_

I THINK TIS SONG ROX!!!

Numb by Linkin Park

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

I'vebecome so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]and every second I waste is more than I can take

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I'vebecome so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

LOL!!! JUz took the pokemon(Tradin card Game) professor ExaM~! its official one arz.. not play play onez... (not kiddin... must onli be 15 years old and above...and its registered in USA thingyz...) WADEV4!!!!!!!!!!! i kinda flunk it...LOL.... only 80% and above pass the test then can is legible to be a judge or sumthing like that in the tornament..I SIMPLY FLUNK IT!!!i thout it would be easy lol... but ya..its so darn tough manz.... wah liaoz..... think whoev4 pass this is a freakz.... i actualli scored 5/25(how unlucky....^^ but this time no more lucky 7!!!) aniway i think i would retake the exam 14 days laterz.... hope i can pass... then i at least got sum position in the league... *BLAH**BLAH*...this exam is for fun ^^....how pathetic...

THEN NOW I REALLI PISSED!!!!!! JUZ ARGUED WIF MY SISTER!!!! shoulda mention the "f" since she is my sister... but at times i realli feel like smacking her!!!!!!*backgrd music=> LINKIN ParK's FAINT"* think mr low is right... music roxz the soul of humanity.....haiz...MR LOW i MISS U!!!! a lot of ppl does... actually practically the whole class...

juz saw zhen hong fell down from the chair... i admitted that i laughed at him so i should die(yay!!!^^) according to his curse!!! i think i am a pure sadist here...think he's realli angry with me.... sorry broz... juz coulda help laughing... its like u can't help laughing at sexy hair... its the same thing...(P.S...STAN= PURE SADIST) wheyz.... i am not comparin zhen hong to sexy hair...dun think too much... mi juz give example of how i felt in his position??HuH??!! wad the hell mi toking.... think i realli breakin down le!!! MENTALLY!!!!!LOL!!!!!

think LEE HOM is good as he can actually learned 11 music instruments by the age of 25!! whoa!! he not onli learn fast but also played them well...so DarN FUCKing COOl rite...*think i turning into a music freak le*... HE77....Zhen hong is rite... i should be STALIN beside others been calling mi stalin as my nickname...i think he's right about the potential part...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...*Echoes oF LaughTeRS* i prefer my second name more than my real name and mi nickname...... think ZEPHYR IS SUCH A NICZ NAME...wadeva.. its my name its suppose to be unique?? HECK!! when the rest of the world like 20% of them shares the same name?? ZEPHYR is rare as a name so i think its cool!!!

I DO THE THINGS I WANT TO!!!! SHUANG JIU GOU LE!!!

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

_Monday, March 14, 2005_

CONGRATULATION!!!
i forgot to mention this arz...hehex... paiseh.. aniwayz..CONGRAS.. SJAB AC and NC'05 gettin champion!!! yay!! LOL!!! good job guys.. Big UPz for yaz!! think i need to get the AC'06 going... aniway yesterday(13/3) went to a kind of function thingy... got lots of stuffz there.. lots of pets owner there too... BUT one thing is that when i was there with my frenz, i notice something... there's all pure breeds... not a single cross at all... think that is SO NOT FAIR!!!!! tok to joanne about this and she told mi that its like that cuz ppl tend to think that they are below the pure breed class!! WAD THE HELL!! is like so wad they are cross breed they are still dogs and for ur information, cross breeds are hardier and easier to look after than pure breeds... think pure breeds and crosses are the same they are still dogs no matter wad and their loyalty , their luv, their trust to their one and onli owner would nver change... it runs in the blood lor... not matter wadz... DOGS are great think they have absolute loyalty and they had the purest heart eva in this world...i think animals are more "human" than homosepians(man-kinds..) at least there is no corruption... no betrayal...hatred..maybe some dogs will have hatred...onli some dominant ones[rocky....(__"")]

not onli that... the stupid laws also caused many local dogs to be a so called" burden"..i been to SPCA web juz browsing for any puppies/doggies for adoption... then i realised that all the dogs in the gallery are NOT HDB APPROVED!!! then how are they gona "give" them out?? think all ppl in s'pore live in bungalows?condominum? WRONG!! most of the population lived in HDB...haiz.. i juz dun understan... perhaps the government should revise their laws... i dun realli get y bigger and local dogs are not allowed... i try to find online but it turns out to be er... nothing.... asked my fren sister and she said it was a BERY OLD law... wadeva... there's nothing much we can do aniway...haiz..

okaz enuff about dogs.. lets get back to MY LIFE!! HAIZ~*wad a big big sigh*wadev4..think life for myself suxz... gonna have my "O" levels coming = stress~. HOpefully i think i can cope with my chinese which is the first paper... but then i think i have to revise on my math, sciences, etc....think i can cope larz... BTW... i think i should be one of the children in the movie "A Series Of Unfortunate Events" CUz music students are gonna haf a lunch time concert soon... its after the march holidayz... and this means SCH + INCOMIN CONCERT = STRESS!!! and the holidays are not like holidays cuz i need to go back to school early in the morning.... and i got holiday assignments that needs to be handed in during holidays.. HOw IRonIC!!!! *gettin CranKy* *yaWn* think i gonna break down... i mean mentally.. not emotionally.. not cryin.. heex... dun mistaken...i think i din cry for quite a long time...juz got bery angry but nver break down nor throw ani ppl those black face..how come? aniway i think i gonna flunk a lot of subjects...already failed my A m@ths... haiz... its predictable cuz i ani how do the paper but quite lucky to get 7 (lucky 7 ^^) over 40!!!! think this mark is like SHIT!! and i hope that i would NVER NVER get back lucky 7 again... remember being lucky for me = sooner or later becum unlucky... i think i am more like a sadist... laugh at those suffering... think i suxz... i wanna scream out LOUD all the unhappiness in mi but i cant... juz dunnoe y....haiz...wanna type them out but i think after the person read le will feel sad..will haf that forlorn expression like mine...haiz... think i am too compassionate and i think i too understan human nature liao which makes mi not myself...cuz the real mi suxz...

TORTURE...PAIN.....WADEV4..BLAH..BLAH>>> these are the things i had experience... though there was a beam of light in earth but i think it is only an illusion to mi...haiz.. bery pessimistic arz.. think i should choose a new blog skin.. something that is more dark..more corruptive(is there such a word?) something that suits mi more.... this one is juz too bright...

i can be bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery NICZ AND CAN BE bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery bery BAD...depends... i think i feel bery shit at times........dunnoe y... is like i think i think too much or maybe i noe too much that..is like tat i noe some ppl hated me/sum liked me and i cannot do anithing at all...kinda feelin u noe LOST? cannot do much cuz wadev4 i did i noe i am hurtin them...heex..maybe i am borned under the fifth cursed star that makes mi jinxed...LOL....i am now REFLECTING *OMM..floating??nahz!!*i am deluding from reality...sometimes...LOL..zhen hong kept cursing his teachers..think is kinda funny to hear them complain.. joanne about choir's stuffz...maybe they din even hear mi complain about anythingy ba...cannot remember...i juz think i am binding by my frenz... dunnoe y...had the fear that if i try to be my true self they would run away...betrayal felt again...and i think they hate mi... i think too much?? not sure...juz feeling lostz...

WHOA!!!wrote so much... think zhen hong needs to think that his life is not tat lousy larz.. try okaz bro... thats gonna be a great help one..trust me... sumtimes there are times of u noe..bery unlucky events.. and even a series of them... and jo i think you need to change your mindset okaz.. dun think that evrything thing is ur fault cuz its wrong!!! sometimes is like its so obvious that its not ur fault but u insist its urs....haiz...dun think that way and one bad thing you haf is tat u always assume... like yesterday u goin to meet xiang yi and i told ya i am goin cuz of the poster thingy but u juz went off after seein zhen hong and mi picking up the cards and jeanette distributin the cards... u might think that at that time u in a rush so u assume that we are not goin.. aiya!! we wanna go de... but nver mind le larz... cuz its past tense le...dun blame urself arz.. juz wan u to be a better person... and thats wad frens are for rite??=) HEY!!! maybe we trio can be the singapore version off " A series of unfortunate events" hahahahaha... i like!!LOL!! :P

think thats all ba... in conclusion... i wish...
-i can pass my O levels wif flyin colours!!!!!(T@rget= 10?? maybe 7...)
-get a dog!!!!!
-playing standard at least grade 7? i now tryin grade 6 pieces...
-work(after "o"levels) for more $$$ not $$$ le!!!
-go travel to australia with jo and zh!!!
-hope that i take the AC 06 would be alright...heard a lot of bad stuffz... gonna need to call janson for more info...haiz...

think thats all.. lets make a list of ppl i noe...

the SJABs....(more impt one mention.. those frenz and got help onez...)
-kelly
-wee hong
-daniel
-peiying
-yilin
-jacklynn
-gavin
-hazel
-junwei
-stephie??not sure the spellin
-etc...quite alot but sum not sure that whether they can still remember me not...

the FrenZ...
-ZHEN HONG
-JOANNE
+Jeanette
-xiangyi
-hidhir
-arif
-andy
-yikun[my twin bro..hahah..dunnoe y ppl say we look alike... we look alike meh??(-_____-)]
-xi yao
-jin yong
-lun kuang
-emily
-jie ying
-sQ 911
-peter
-fatt kent
-bi yong
-syed
-hakeem
-hong wei
-peixuan...
-yujing..
-etc.... i apologise if i din mention ur name cuz i dun seems to have the time to type le...need to go...

BIG UPZ FOR ALLZ!!!! I DO THE THINGS I LIKE=)

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

think lately i crazy le....i always wanted i dog ...(: juz hope i could get one...btw..i think alicia keys rox....her MTV got piano every where!!!! i like... juz read zh blog... scold arz!!!! think he need to learn to accept loss... haiz...onli a game dun get too geh~ but there are some pple who like to geh pple after they lost(not mi arz...zhen hong...) juz dun like those ppl...

this morning suxz.....dun wanna talk about it anymore... it juz suxz...fuck~!

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!

_Friday, March 11, 2005_

whoa!!!! my com finally was fixed after dunnoe years ba!!! yay!! anyway i think i need to change this blog's skin... think it is kinda ...er....er...er....wadeva!!! juz wanna change it and so be it!! :P

today mr radha actually scolded pple... not like him... he tend to joke then scold..but understandable one lar... kinda pity him... is like the stupid file check thingy is getting on everyone's nerves and still they dun wan to remove it... its like we have 15 assignments but there are 41 in class.. then radha had to do up 41X15=?? assignments lor... haiz... gd luck radha...
kinda feeling gulity... handed in 12 assignments at one go.... :P

think my tests' results are like sucky... after gettin all my result then i update blog...gonna flunk sumting....juz got that feeling...btw the music paper i took suck!!!

__ I was too HUNGRY !!!!